Trust Issues

I think everyone in the world has some sort of issue with trust. Recently, I’ve been sorting through my own feelings, thoughts, and hurdles on the subject. So cue my highly introspective, word vomit, thought dump, of a blog post…

I was raised and grew up as an independent child. It not a bad thing. In fact, I’m quite thankful for it. But somewhere along the way, my ability to trust others with something I could do myself diminished. I can’t quite pinpoint when it started happening. What I will say, is that years of group assignments in school definitely reinforced the feeling though.

After many years of learning about myself (mostly after high school) and going through life, I think I’ve worked out my trust problems enough to be ”effectively functional”. Except there’s one area I’m still working on… my feelings. It’s hard for me to truly, 100%, share how I feel with someone other than my brain. I don’t trust others with my feelings. Maybe this gets chalked up to being an INTJ. Maybe I’m still scarred from something that happened in the past (not quite sure what). Who knows?! But the reality is, I feel like this is the last challenge I’m facing when it comes to trusting others.

I am making a real effort to push myself more in this area. It’s also part of the reason I have this blog and why I’ve publically made this post. Hopefully, the more I put my feelings out there, the less scary it will be to… I don’t know… move on?

Meh. We’ll see…

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